coffee

I simply love love love coffee. I love drip coffee, espresso, americanos, lattes, pots full of french press coffee....all coffee.

• I love the smell,
• the way it makes me feel
• the way it reminds me of staying up all night chatting with friends,
• the way it reminds me of early morning breakfast dates with my husband,
• the way the to go cups feel in my hands
• the way it reminds me of playdates with my best female friends
• the way it makes me feel like I'm treating myself to some sort of specail extravagance when I'm out and about

I miss it!!!! I've been allowing myself one precious cup each morning. I live for this. Lately I've been craving a second cup as soon as the first is done. Or I've been craving a cup in the mid-afternoon as a special treat. I'm afraid to have more than one cup. Partially because I don't know how it will affect the baby and partially because I'm afraid 2 cups will lead to me wanting 3, 4 or 5 cups a day! I'm like that. Maybe I should have given up coffee cold turkey.

I gave up alcohol the moment I found out I was pregnant and I stressed about the glasses of wine I had while I was pregnant but didn't know it. The funny thing is I don't miss alcohol very much at all. In fact, I would be totally happy never having a drop again once the baby is born. Sure I miss ordering a cold beer at a mexican restaurant with my husband (I love eating out) but that is about as far as it goes and the feeling disappears quickly. Is it because I've gone cold turkey with the alcohol??

Coffee, on the other hand.....I would sell my soul for someone to tell me it is okay to have as much as I'd like. I don't even know if it is okay to have decaf while pregnant. I heard that the way decaf is processed, you should stay away from it too.

Also, not on the topic of coffee... can I just say that 5 and 7 year old kids are great! They are playing quietly in another room while I type. Totally self-sufficient, totally independent. Sob sob sob....soon I won't have this amazing freedom. I better take advantage of it.